Some people asked me a while ago why I’m playing video games all the time (during my free time and weekends) and why don’t I get out of the house more often. Well the answer can be either short and with no actual meaning behind OR long as hell and with at least 40-50 reasons to sustain it.
But I’m going to give more than a response. I’ll give an explanation for this “unusual” thing that I keep doing.
For some people is easy to get out of the house and go do…stuff. Like taking a walk or visiting a museum or going to a concert. It’s easy for me too. I have the time to do it and, sometimes, the will. But that’s not all that needs to be met so I can have a “normal” social life. I need to do something that keeps my mind busy constantly. Because if my mind stops doing her stuff, even for a second, I start thinking about depressing stuff and my mood is gone. I’m the kind of person that has a hard time forgetting things, so I keep my mind busy with things that require me to pay attention all the time. So here comes in the gaming.
For me, at least, gaming is more than a mode to pass the time or simply get entertainment. It’s that thing that keeps me focused on the things at hand. It keeps my brain active because I like to punish myself and play the games at the hardest difficulty, it keeps my senses sharp because some random thing might kill me in the next .2 seconds and it keeps me entertained because of the story/lore/big boobs of one of the main characters. Yes, boobs are entertaining (see Mass Effect’s Asari).
Jokes aside, I game so much because it distracts me from the shit show that’s my life. I get in a world that I can control (at least at some level) and that gives me the mental state that keeps me going the next day.
So, at the end of the day, it’s my way to keep myself sane enough to work in this world. Aside from going out and all the other social stuff that everyone does.